a mini recap: 2025

2025.

the year that held the the deepest of sorrows + a deeper understanding of ✨JOY✨

it’s been a quieter year for me. and as i leave this year, i look back and honestly see more pain than not. yet it’s been the crushing and the pressing that have led me to understand more about joy - what it TRULY is.

joy is born from Faith, hope + love. it is born from an active surrender, an abiding trust in who God says He is. joy is not simply a feeling, but an understanding: that whatever may come, can come. because God will still be beside me. joy is a promise - in the suffering, in the pain, in the heartache, in the near hopelessness: He is here, too.

2025: i dreamt. i set dreams aside. i prayed. i listened. i surrendered. i trusted. i lifted. and walked. and spent time in the sunshine. i hoped when it was hard to hope. i forgave. i fought for our marriage amidst the resurfacing of addiction. i asked hard questions. i prayed some more. i cried. i slowed down. i chose to lean in. i learned. i healed. i cried. i lifted some more. and cried some more. i laughed. i prayed. we prayed. we conceived our 3rd child after 6 years of infertility. we lost our 3rd child 3 weeks ago. we cried. i still cry. we clung to each other + we leaned further into His heart, together - more than we ever have before.

this year is one i fought through. we fought through. a year in which we were fought for. and here we are. 🕊️❤️‍🔥

i told Matt on New Years Eve: “i made it through this year. i’m really proud of myself.”

and that’s the truth.

there were so many - so many! - hard moments this year. moments in which my strength didn’t exist - and it was His strength, His grace, His unwavering love for me - that held me when no one else could.

2025 - the year i learned deep, unshakeable, unwavering JOY: knowing with all of my being that God alone is enough for me. and that no matter the circumstance - His grace and strength will carry me [us!] through all things, always.

2025 - see you never 🙃

2026 - we ready.